Where do I belong?

No Seriously, where do I belong?

I just need to write and I’m  hoping that this will reach some people.

I look like it’s alright on the outside but in all truth it hurts.

I often feel left out when I go to Nationals with the team I am supposedly on. They may not think this but it’s coming from their point of view. It’s frustrating.

When I post something to Facebook, it feels like I am being attacked with their comments. Maybe this annoying me brings them pleasure?

I don’t feel like I am being allowed to do some things. I want to live my life but It seems I am not allowed to leave.

I want a full time job and I can handle it; Despite what anyone says. I did  full time at Greenlee for 3 years while still biking. It seems that every dollar I take in now I spend. How am I supposed to save/

This is really annoying that I have to stretch my work to 16 hours because it seems like nearly everything was taken away. It took longer in the beginning because of learning it. Doesn’t everyone take longer at first?

I am beyond sick of dealing with social security. Often it feels like how did they ever get a job? Honestly!

I continue to cycle but get nowhere. It takes me a lot more effort to do everything but still it doesn’t seem to matter what I do. People seem to be more worried about the present rather than the future, what could be possible.

I just want to fit in. Where have all my “friends” gone?

Where do I belong?

I’m sure many of those with an acquired injury feel the same way.

I can’t begin to tell you the amount of times that people think and say something along the lines of stupid. Boy their mouths would drop if they found out I have a Master’s in Forensic Accounting.

But to them I guess it doesn’t matter; they are all about themselves.

Ok rant over, back to regular scheduled programming.