11 years, 4 months, and 12 days later

Have you ever felt that you can no longer go on anymore? Have you tried your hardest but still can get nowhere? Or if you get someone you are thrown back into day 1?

By no means am I back to where I was 11 years, 4 months, and 12 days ago.

 

There are always days that I start to feel like I shouldn’t be here nor made it through that but I did. It brings me chills just to even view these photos. I don’t want to even wonder how my parents, my family, and my friends felt.

Tonight is one of those nights and I am sure my time could be better spent filling out yet another job application or following up on one.

I am tired. I am worn out. I do feel like I have failed. I feel like I just need to give up trying.

But I just can’t:

 

I have traveled so many places, experienced a number of different cultures, met a bunch of people, took on many challenges, failed a lot

BUT

I had fun doing it. Something inside of me is driving me to get to the next level. Wherever that may be I really don’t know.

But isn’t that what makes life fun?: Getting to chase your own dreams?

Please fail for that will only make you chase your dreams more. You may have to repeat many times but that shouldn’t matter to yourself.

I am still trying to figure out why the hell I am still here but I am having fun doing it.

Do you know why you are here, on earth, in life? Are you chasing your dreams?