Why can’t I just be normal?

Hi all, I intended to use this site as an inspiration but in truth I have a lot on mind and really just need to vent.

As you may have noticed, I haven’t written in a long time. I just haven’t had the time to do so and I am trying to figure it all out.

I left Intuit because I feared that I was facing some sort of Discrimination and I joined Maya Bridge LLC, a language interpretating service that is growing rapidly!

This past weekend I did a time trial in Alabama and although I don’t feel like I could have done better there is always going to be the person that comes up with a way to say that I could have done better. I was beaten by over 3 minutes. This just helps me prove my case that I should be in the other class. (I had been training over a year and this person was coming from an injury last year).

This all started in 2015. The year before the US classified me as a T1. However when I went to South Africa the US entered me as a T2 but when I brought it up, she was like they will change it. But of course they didn’t. And I found out this weekend that the PT place I did the Modified Ashworth Scale was using an older version of the form. The updated version in 1987 would have put me exactly where I needed to be to get pushed down to T1. So now the fun begins of trying to change it!

So this post is titled Why can’t I just be normal and you are all probably thinking how this relates to this?

I spent a lot of my time when I was “recovering” around other people and because of that it is harder than hell to make friends! I often feel like I am being watched and controlled. I want my own family and that is starting to fade away. I’ve tried online dating. I met someone who just wanted marriage so he could stop working. I met another guy who is into fashion, I think he is gay to a lesser degree. I also met someone who is disabled, although I do like him I am not sure that will work with him.

Many see me and assume I am a weirdo. I’m not sure how I want to deal with this now.