I write this blog as both a help to those who may be going through the same stuff as me and to provide some insight to those who may not even have a clue as to what is going on.
Every once in a while I find someone who may be able to help and comfort me.
More often than not, I often find myself being ignored or excluded for some reason or another.
I’m not like most people at work, I think differently and slower but I get it done.
At play I am often excluded because I am different than them. I can’t run and do many of the things that many can do. Often it involves having to find rare equipment just in order to participate.
Often many hover over me out of fear that something may happen. It can be hard for me to be an individual.
I have worked extremely hard to get where I am at today; sometimes more than what most would have ever thought.
I can’t begin to tell you how many times lately that I just want to give up trying. There is a good bridge over there and no one will miss me.
The truth is you might be wrong. At the conference today I can’t begin to tell you how much I felt welcome. Several people came up to me and said that I know you from somewhere. Maybe it’s my smile, my personality, or even the fact that some think I am good looking.
So as I am driving home I am going to ignore that bridge today and keep it in mind that it’s not me; it’s them.